I've had it.

You know it must be nice to have a husband that supports, understands, and encourages you. Instead I get crap on a 24 hour basis and i don't understand why. What the FUCK did I do to deserve this? Is this gods way of punishing me for eternity? My relationship sucks, plain & simple, all he does is beat me down, and I'm about to loose it. Antidepressants only go so far, until you feel like the only fucking way out is to kill yourself because you're too cowardly to stand up and say "I'm leaving". It's emotional & mental abuse and I take it. My mom made me promise her that I would leave if I ever was in a controlling relationship, sorry mom. And it's not even like I can leave, where would I even go? I wish he would leave me alone. All he does is beat on me. Someone save me from my life.