Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Homemade Dreamcatcher, Wolfade, & Crests

Well everyone in preparation of our New Moon party, we've decided to make dream catchers as one of the Jake favors, and as you can see, I have successfully done one :) I am pretty proud of it myself!! The Boys (Andrew & Mike) picked out the green beads, and I think it came out fantastic! We're going over Barb's to see Abby since we didnt see her on Friday and I am so excited to show Barbara how it looks, along with all of my ideas! Courtney may stop by so she can get an idea of how the house is set up! ONE MONTH TILL THE PARTY! I sent out Hillary & Jess's invites today as well, and everyone else should have theirs today (with the exception of Mike Turmelle who goes to college near Boston).

Wolfade, the wolf version of gatorade! LOL! I was looking at the crude table set up drawing I've made and realized we were without a drink on the Jake table, so I thought up "Wolfade", gatorade in all actuality. Don't know which flavor yet though...maybe blue? I like the blue one!

Andrew is going to woodburn the Cullen Crest! I am so excited! The Jake one was just so fantastic that I begged him to do the crest too! :)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Recipes Needed for Party

This is more to remind myself, but you guys can use these recipes too :)

Red Velvet Cake Recipe (for birthday cake possibly)

Ingredients

* Vegetable oil for the pans
* 2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour
* 1 1/2 cups sugar
* 1 teaspoon baking soda
* 1 teaspoon fine salt
* 1 teaspoon cocoa powder
* 1 1/2 cups vegetable oil
* 1 cup buttermilk, at room temperature
* 2 large eggs, at room temperature
* 2 tablespoons red food coloring (1 ounce)
* 1 teaspoon white distilled vinegar
* 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
* Cream Cheese Frosting, recipe follows
* Crushed pecans, for garnish

Directions

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F. Lightly oil and flour 3 (9 by 1 1/2-inch round) cake pans.

In a large bowl, sift together the flour, sugar, baking soda, salt, and cocoa powder. In another large bowl, whisk together the oil, buttermilk, eggs, food coloring, vinegar, and vanilla.

Using a standing mixer, mix the dry ingredients into the wet ingredients until just combined and a smooth batter is formed.

Divide the cake batter evenly among the prepared cake pans. Place the pans in the oven evenly spaced apart. Bake, rotating the pans halfway through the cooking, until the cake pulls away from the side of the pans, and a toothpick inserted in the center of the cakes comes out clean, about 30 minutes.

Remove the cakes from the oven and run a knife around the edges to loosen them from the sides of the pans. One at a time, invert the cakes onto a plate and then re-invert them onto a cooling rack, rounded-sides up. Let cool completely.

Frost the cake. Place 1 layer, rounded-side down, in the middle of a rotating cake stand. Using a palette knife or offset spatula spread some of the cream cheese frosting over the top of the cake. (Spread enough frosting to make a 1/4 to 1/2-inch layer.) Carefully set another layer on top, rounded-side down, and repeat. Top with the remaining layer and cover the entire cake with the remaining frosting. Sprinkle the top with the pecans.
Cream Cheese Frosting:

1 pound cream cheese, softened

4 cups sifted confectioners' sugar

2 sticks unsalted butter (1 cup), softened

1 teaspoon vanilla extract

In a standing mixer fitted with the paddle attachment, or with a hand-held electric mixer in a large bowl, mix the cream cheese, sugar, and butter on low speed until incorporated. Increase the speed to high, and mix until light and fluffy, about 5 minutes. (Occasionally turn the mixer off, and scrape the down the sides of the bowl with a rubber spatula.)

Reduce the speed of the mixer to low. Add the vanilla, raise the speed to high and mix briefly until fluffy (scrape down the bowl occasionally). Store in the refrigerator until somewhat stiff, before using. May be stored in the refrigerator for 3 days.

Yield: enough to frost a 3 layer (9-inch) cake


Chocolate Covered Red Velvet Cake Balls


Red Velvet Cake

* 1 cup vegetable shortening
* 2 eggs
* 1 1/2 cups sugar
* 1 teaspoon cocoa powder
* 2 – 3 ounces red food coloring (Depending on how red you want it to look)
* 2 1/2 cups cake flour
* 1 teaspoon kosher salt
* 1 cup buttermilk
* 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
* 1 teaspoon baking soda
* 1 teaspoon vinegar

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.In the bowl of a mixer, cream together the shortening, eggs and sugar. In a separate small bowl, mix together the cocoa and food coloring. Add the paste to the shortening mixture. Sift the flour and salt together over parchment. Add to the batter alternately with the buttermilk in 3 additions. Add the vanilla extract. Fold in the baking soda and vinegar. Pour the batter into 2 greased 9-inch cake pans. Bake for 30 minutes or until an inserted cake tester comes out clean. Let cool on a cooling rack. Invert the cakes from the pans.

Cream Cheese Frosting

* 2 cups powdered sugar
* 8 oz. cream cheese, at room temperature
* 1/2 cups heavy cream

Sift powdered sugar in medium-sized mixing bowl to break up any lumps. Add the cream cheese and mix until smooth. Mix in the cream until well blended.

Cake Ball Directions

1 1/2 lbs. Chocolate of your choosing.

After the cake has cooled completely (I toss mine in the fridge), crumble into a large bowl, mixing with the cream cheese. Use your hands. There’s no good way to do it otherwise. Yes. It is messy. Get over it. Let mixture chill in the fridge for a few hours to guarantee it will keep the ball shape. Roll out mixture into quarter size balls and lay on wax paper covered cookie sheet. Toss into the freezer for an hour or so to set.

Melt chocolate in microwave per directions on package. It’s safest to do it 20-30 seconds at a time and mix between each heating to make sure it’s melting properly.

Roll balls in chocolate and lay on wax paper until firm. (Use a spoon or forx to dip and roll the balls in chocolate, tapping off the extra.)

Makes between 50-60 balls.

Woodburning, Hot Topic & Partayyyy

I am so pleased. I am just so excited about this! My husband has made this AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME wood burn of Jacob & a Wolf. I found the images and traced them on, but he wood burned it and it is SOOOO awesome! I asked him to make it for our party, and he happily did and it looks so awesome!

Sunday, Courtney met us at the Mall and I havent seen her in 2 years! She is my co party planner now :) We had an awesome time, and the two guys working at Hot Topic were awfully flirty to us! (shhh don't tell anyone! ;) ) But we got New Moon shirts, hers of course was Jacob, and I got one with all the Cullens on it, AWESOME!!! :D :D :D We got a lot of party ideas and its coming along!

Speaking of our PARTAYYY the invites went out today! I am SOOOOO excited! Sue printed them double sided and they are just kickass looking, wonder when everyone will get 'em? Tomorrow or Thursday probably? I dunno! It is scheduled for Saturday, November 14, 2009 from 6-9 at Scott & Barb's house, they're letting us have it there, THANK GOD!! :) I am just BEYOND excited, you have no idea.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

I've had it.

You know it must be nice to have a husband that supports, understands, and encourages you. Instead I get crap on a 24 hour basis and i don't understand why. What the FUCK did I do to deserve this? Is this gods way of punishing me for eternity? My relationship sucks, plain & simple, all he does is beat me down, and I'm about to loose it. Antidepressants only go so far, until you feel like the only fucking way out is to kill yourself because you're too cowardly to stand up and say "I'm leaving". It's emotional & mental abuse and I take it. My mom made me promise her that I would leave if I ever was in a controlling relationship, sorry mom. And it's not even like I can leave, where would I even go? I wish he would leave me alone. All he does is beat on me. Someone save me from my life.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Party, Friends & $300

Well Andrew & I would really like to throw our New Moon Premiere & Birthday Bash, so I'm attempting to plan it & get all the details together. I've asked my step mother in law if we could have it at her house & she said she still needed to talk to my father in law. It would be awesome to have it at their house, more space, less expensive AND it could inside & out and we could have a bonne fire! That fits in well to the Jacob part of the party. I have soooo many ideas and I really wanna have it! I've planned a few contests, one for girls exclusively (design your own tshirt contest) and one for guys (Cullen car scavenger hunt) and a new moon quote trivia contest :) I'm also trying to figure put food & such, it's a lot to put together. I know it's kindof childish but w/e I'm not even 20, I get to celebrate turning 20 :)

Courtney & I have decided that we are going to go to the mall and surrounding stores on Sunday to go New Moon shopping & hang out :) I'm really excited, I haven't been able to hang out with my friends in a long time. Andrews gonna hang out with Mike then too I guess :) Courtney & I will be checking out iparty for party ideas as well, can't wait for Sunday!!

So every price quote I've gotten is $300 plus food!! Unbelieveable! Although the sales manager at the Hilton told me that a fair homewood suites price would be around $150, which isn't awful but I'd rather not pay that much. So hopefully the sales man. from there will give me a call back :) but ultimately, Barb & Scotts would be better :)

Monday, October 5, 2009

For baby gaga...

Hey Ladies! I need your help in planning my kick ass New Moon Priemere/Birthday Bash! Yep I'm an adult, but hey, I get to have a weee bit of fun in my life :)

Since it's New Moon I'd like both Edward (and the rest of the Cullens) & Jacob (and the rest of the Quielluetes) incorporated. I do have some ideas but need your creative input!

I need ideas on:
--Foods to serve
--"Activities" to do
--"goodies" to give out
--Decorations
--Lighting/audio/visual

And whatever else you can think of!! I do have some ideas, and got a bunch from:  http://www.hostessblog.com/2009/04/host-a-twilight-theme-party-at-home like the 'vampire kisses'; I'm going to have beige lip gloss too as 'werewolf kisses'. That blog has been immensely inspirational!!!

Thanks girls!

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Am I an embarassment?

I'd seriously like to know why some people are so fucking stuck up. Is it that I am an embarassment? What's so bad about me? Why do some people feel the fucking need to delete things I say? Am I that dumb? Obnoxious? Ugly? Unimportant? Annoying? I try my hardest to be nice to people and give others attention, even if it's just a "Hows your mom doing? I haven't seen her in so so long!" what exactly is wrong by this sentiment?? WHAT? Are you too fucking cool to just have a god damn comment from me left on their damn facebook status?

Apparently I'm the dog shit you accidently step in. Isn't that nice. And this isn't the first damn time it's happened. Whyis what I'd like to know... WHY am I unimportant or an embarassment?

I seriously feel like bawling my eyes out, and couldn't concentrate on my studying.

Friday, October 2, 2009

30 Seconds to Mars, Love & Friends

I've really come to LOVE 30 Seconds to Mars music. I love Jared Leto, what an amazing song. I reallllllly like "The Kill", so good, LOVE IT!! My little sister even likes them and shes 10... lol. She likes Jared :) But who doesnt, seriously?

Love, what is it anyways? Man, Andrew & I have been fighting lately. Part of which being my fault, and I feel bad for it. We're getting past it like always, but if one time we dont? :(

Friends, ah yes friends. Well, its been a week since a very close friend of mine and I last spoke. He told me to "shut the fuck up" and I havent heard anything since. He is actually my husbands friend of 15 years as well. Until I hear an apology I dont plan on seeing him. I am good friends with his girlfriend (which actually they met through Andrew & I) and its hard having the strain on mine & his friendship while being friends with her. But, whatever I guess. He had better not be hurting her... I will never forgive him, shes too good for that.

Fair, Screaming & Cold


Yesterday we went to the Deerfield Fair and Lilly just LOVED it! :) I loved the cows especially, they are just so darling, I really want a farm at some point in my life for all sorts of little animals :) I Love baby cows the most, they are so amazing. And actually, I saw a mother cow deliver a calf once, it was the most AMAZING thing I've ever seen. I cannot wait to deliver humans! Lilly loved all the lights and sounds and smells of the fair and had a blast, but damn was it cold!! Andrew was freezing, but I was comfortable. I got the prettiest necklace to, Ill have to take a picture and post it.

All Lilly has done since I put her down for a nap is scream while I do my studying, math specifically which needs my 100% focus because I am so crappy at it! I absolutely HAVE to get good scores on my NLN... I NEED to go to Nursing School next Fall, I absolutely HAVE TO!!!!!!!! I will get there, I just need to absolutely study my ass off.

My has it been cold here lately. Our bedroom got down to 63 I think last night and we were all a bit chilly. I never ever sleep with my jammy pants on, but I did last night & glad I did. BRRRRR... its only about 55 right now and I have a shorts sleeve shirt one with my jammy pants and I am cold. I am going to make myself some coffee soon, I am freezing.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Wellness, Sickness & Physical Therapy

Lillys 15 month wellness appointment was on Tuesday, and the doctor says she looks GREAT! Shes happy & healthy and right on track (a little skinny still, but w/e.) She is 22.4 lbs and 32 inches tall! She had three shots and really didnt like the MMR shot (which burns they say).

Andrew got sent home from work yesterday for being sick. So was home by 8:30 am, leaving me no time to do anything I usually do in the mornings! I was going to work on our website (paranormal investigation!), put my NLN PAX exam study guide on hold, and blog! :) We ended up fighting most of the day, like we usually do. Lilly was really high maintenance yesterday, and it made us both edgy.

Yesterday was my first physical therapy appointment for my prolapse. And going into it I thought "How the HELL do you do physical therapy on that specific part of your body?!" My therapists name is Cristin and shes very nice. We went over all of my symptoms and she explained how the prolapsed happen & stuff. She said judging by my reports of how my pregnancy went & such that Ive had pelvic weakness and even if I hadnt have delivered Lilly vaginally, the prolapse still might have happen! She said that because I had weakness already and that my labor was fast is what caused this. So thank you Lilly & your big fat head. Shes lucky I love her!! Apparently you should be able to hold a kegal for at least 10 seconds without it "fizzling" out... I could only do 4! Stupid pelvic muscles. She was very understanding, and I told her things that I have noticed that every other Dr was like "Um, I have no clue what youre talking about", but she understood. She said this is a very under researched field of study and shes right. Also, my episiotomy scar can be adding to my symptoms as well my my hips & back being out of alignment! She was rotating my left leg yesterday and noticed that it wasn't quite aligned. She was feeling my back and was pushing and sure enough, it hurt on the left side! So apparently after having children it can go out of alignment which can make pelvic issues much worse. She agreed with Dr Lilly in saying that the PT will not cure my prolapse, but it will make my recovery from surgery that much more successful! Shes not sure exactly how long I have to be going for in order to have the surgery. Next time shes doing an internal exam to see exactly which muscle walls are ripped and which specific movements can make them better. She was a ton of help and Ive already started my excercises, theyre easy, I did them lying in bed.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

DHHS, Hot Chocolate & Shots

Today Andrew gets out of work early so we can go to the DHHS office to apply for child care assistance for Lilly to go to Day Care, we cant afford $800 a month...no way in HELL. That & we have to link DCC with us. The waiting list starts October 1st, and I pray to god that we did this in time!

Hot Chocolate is just so comforting on a cold day, it was just so tasty! I didnt have my usual cup of coffee, (Im craving chocolate, period must be coming) and it hot the spot! I love hot chocolate on days like this!

Lilly goes for her 15 month wellness checkup today, and yes, more shots. Shes not going to be happy! I am curious to see how much she weighs now, shes growing so quick! And how tall she is! Her legs & torso are SO LONG! And shes still as skinny as ever, but shes healthy :)

Monday, September 21, 2009

Barking, Driving & Anniversaries.

Good Morning world! Well the roofers are back this morning and started promptly at 8am... blasting their music. Can you say ANNOYING? And of course Blueberry has been barking his head off at them since they got here. Mocha (our cat) is now used to the noise and is now resting on the back of the recliner. Blueberrys barking drives me up a wall, Im am so glad he's finally shut up.

Well Andrew attempted to take me driving yesterday and all he did was yell which made me exceedingly nervous. I hate when he yells at me :( I cried, we eventually got past the ordeal, but he never officially apologized... figures. But anyways, last night Andrew says he needed to go get gas and asked me to go. My mother in law Sue suggests that I drive and that she would come with us. I was a little nervous, because I dont have much experience at all, especially that busy of a road! She even made me back out of our driveway which made me REALLY nervous, because frankly, I SUCK at backing up, but its only because I dont have much practice. And as a quick back story here, when I was 15 my grandfather had started teaching me how to drive, but I was sent to placement in August 2005. While in the states care, I was never taught to drive, so here I am, 19 (almost 20, Ill be 20 in November) and no license....can you say PATHETIC?!? Back to the present... So I backed out of our driveway (successfully) and we drove to the Irving gas station on 155. That was nervewracking. First time at a traffic light, first time over 35 MPH, first time pulling up to a gas pump, and Andrew even made me pump the gas, haha... oh the joys. And I got to drive home, but not before so more practice! We went around some of the backroads, on to central ave (a little nerve wracking to me!!) and then to back river road and some of the back roads over there) and back towards home. And then pulled into our driveway and successfully parking & not hitting ANYTHING! Omg, I was so proud of myself, which doesnt happen often. A great confidence builder. The best thing though? Sue was calm, supportive & patient. What I NEED in order to learn! So I was very very greatful for that! I feel bad that she has already had to teach Andrew how to drive, and now me, but I really appreciate it! I have a hard time judging how wide the car is for some reason, I either hug the center line or the shoulder... but Ill get it right soon.

Yesterday was mine & Andrews 3 year anniversary since we first got together. Cannot believe its been that long, cant believe we survived this long! I made a special family breakfast for the 3 of us, dessert, and dinner, as well as some of my ultra yummy cinnamon bread...YUM! Some of our anniversary was spent crying (by me) but whatever, he just needs to be a little more patient with me I guess.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Good Moods, Fancy & Wax.

Well good morning all, I am in a FABULOUS mood! I woke up on the right side of the bed today, verrrrry cool! Lilly is also in a terrific mood today and gave me lots of kisses first thing this morning. Such a sweet little girl, love her.

Have anyone of you head "Fancy" by Reba McEntire? I like it, the beat particularly. The story of the song is sad, but she makes it and thats all that matters. Im in a total country mood today, unsure why. And now Im listening to "For Whom the Bell Tolls" by Mettallica... random huh? Yikes, lol.

I found a recipe for homemade body wax and I may try it. A little nervous to, but maybe itll work out just fine? Not sure yet.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Daycares, New Moon & SallieMae.

We checked out Dover Childrens Center yesterday and it was pretty cool, I think Lilly will like it! Andrew needs to find time to get out of work so we can go apply for assistance in paying for it ($200 a WEEK otherwise!!) so we'll see when that is I guess. The director gave us a "linking" sheet which will link us to the daycare. We need to do this ASAP because if not, theres a waiting list that starts october 1st!

Omg, found an AWESOME mash up trailer of New Moon today, everyone needs to see it at least once, its amazing!



MAKE SURE YOU SEE IT!! I cannot wait until November 20th! Still dont know if we are having our party or not...kinda wish we could hear back from the damn hotel people already. Idiots.

Now to SallieMae and there stupidness. Long story short 2 years ago I filled out a loan app, signed the promissary note and everything but the school i was gonna go to was going bankrupt, so I canceled my loans. I went to go through them again and it wanted me to sign under my maiden name because it was in there records attached to my social security number. So I was on hold for 20 minutes & talked to someone for 10 and I had to fax them some information this morning. UGH!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Obama calls Kanye West a Jackass... LOL!

Roofers, Loans & Yogurt.

Well today starts the madness of the roofers shredding up the roof & making the dog bark, just lovely. Ive been up since 6 and didnt fall asleep till like 1, so I am pretty tired. Blueberry wont stop barking and the roofers are exceedingly noisy. KA-THUNK KA-THUNK is all I hear. Yayyyy me.

I am going to attempt to work on some student loan stuff today, I know I have till like December to do it, Im just bored and would like to get it out of the way. Student Loans make me nervous though, I dont like borrowing money like that. Then youre in the hole for the rest of your life like my mom...*shudder* Last year they intercepted her tax return to pay for her school loans.

Well, this is the 2nd day in a row Lilly just wont eat yogurt for me...not sure why. Maybe her taste buds or changing or maybe shes full? Not sure. Its very interesting watching a toddler grow & change, and its amazing how QUICK they DO change! Unbelieveable! She is currently running, walking, jumping, dancing, climbing, and starting to talk. She can say "Mumma" and "Dada" clear as a bell. Other words she has said are: Duck, Quack, Taco (im not kidding!), Cat, Dog and Nana.

Introductions & Such

Welcome to my new blog, glad you've navigated your way here! In this blog, I will discuss my life in general, talk about things I cannot vocalize and maybe learn a thing or two on the way. So lets get started with introductions...

My name is Crystal-Lyn, but more often than not, I got by Crystal. I was born on November 15, 1989, and I am going on 20 years old. My paternal grandmother was also born November 15th... My dad was born on the Ides of March (March 15, which is EXCEEDINGLY appropriate for him) and my sister was born December 15th... a lot of 15s!

My mom & dads relationship was extremely shortlived and for the better. My mom raised me along with my step father & grandparents and my father wasnt in my life again till I was 14, but thats a whole other story in itself.

I am married & I am a mom. Quite a fete at this age, lol. I met my husband Andrew my last year of highschool (which technically was my JUNIOR year because I graduated in three years, but I call it my senior year) in our Tech. Prep. Geometry class. I was actually pretty rude to him the first day of school... but we got over it, haha.

He proposed to me January 3, 2007, at the Madbury firestation where he is a volunteer fireman. Best day of my life. He got down on one knee and everything :)

We graduated that following June (yayyyy!) and found out we were expecting a little bundle of joy in September! We got married on March 30, 2008 and Lilly Marie Clark was born unto this earth on May 29, 2008 at 12:56 pm. Amazing. It was truley amazing. Shes 15 months now and a crazy little girl!

Now hes working & I stay home with Buggles. Oh yes, I havent quite mentioned why my name is "buggles_momma". From when Lilly was a teeny tiny infant (preemie sized!!) I called her Lilly Bug... well that eventually transformed in Buggles, and now EVERYONE calls her Buggles! Its a very unique nickname, I rather like it.

Maybe I should share some goals with you all of mine. My career goal is to become a Certified Nurse Midwife. I want to deliver babies & provide prenatal & postpartum care to women. It fascinates me! I would also like to work with women with gyneological issues as well, as I am a woman, and have many reproductive issues myself, I'd like to help others! Particularly with PCOS patients & women with pelvic organ prolapses, Ive been there myself, and want to help other women get the medical attention they need!

A personal goal of mine is have one more child, either sex will do. But not for years down the road...Ive got QUITE a bit of school ahead of me and one child is hard enough.

Another personal goal of mine is to own our own house somewhere. With some lands, maybe some farm land... I want some farm animals and a big garden...Ill get there someday.

So thats pretty much me in a nutshell...you'll learn more as time passes.